I’ve been counting my blessings, which might seem an odd thing to do, considering I have cancer that can’t be cured. But I wouldn’t be Bernie if I couldn’t find that glimmer of light in the dark.
There’s no question that writing this book has made me confront the cold reality of my current situation, but it’s also made me realise what a full and wonderful life I’ve had, and how much I still have to be grateful for. My glass has always been half full and I’m passionate about life. So I made the decision right from the start that I’d rather live with hope. My positivity has been crucial in helping me to live with cancer and win many little battles along the way. I would be lying if I said I never had dark moments when I felt scared and desperate and sad, but I never once thought of myself as ‘dying of cancer’ – my attitude has always been that I’m living with it.
I also believe that my childhood and teenage years armed me with many of the qualities I needed to take on this disease: a fighting spirit and a bloody good sense of humour. Being born into a family of eight kids – with five competitive sisters – meant I always had to shout louder than the rest to get myself heard. And being part of a sweet and innocent girl band also gave me plenty to rebel against! Not bad preparation for summoning up the sheer determination you need when you’re trying to beat the odds of a pretty grim cancer diagnosis and get your doctors to listen to you.
It never entered my head that I was writing a memoir because I was going to die – quite the opposite. I want my book to be a celebration of my life, which has been full, happy, exciting and filled with wonderful people and experiences. Cancer is a relatively new thing for me and, yes, it has changed me – how could it not? But I don’t want the disease to define me. Cancer has become part of my journey, but it’s not the whole story. There’s so much more to me than that. I’m a wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend and auntie – those are the roles I want to define me.
My life has always been blessed by music. I’ve been singing professionally for fifty years and now my voice has been taken away, I feel so glad I got the chance to make my solo album. If anyone wants to play something of mine when I’m gone, that’s what to play. I’m grateful my daughter Erin will have it to keep her company, too. And it has the beautiful song Steve wrote for Kate, the daughter we were blessed with first, who sadly didn’t get to see any of this life. In the album sleeve I wrote: ‘Whenever I’ve been happy, music has helped me celebrate. When I’ve been sad, it’s been a friend. Music has never let me down.’ And, over past three years, those words have never had more poignancy.
Anyway, thank you so much for reading this and I really hope you enjoy my book.
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Wildly famous comedian, anarchic judge on Britain’s Got Talent, and record-breaking long distance swimmer, David Walliams is a man of many talents.
It’s an age-old question that everyone asks: where does a dancing dog go after winning Britain’s Got Talent? Well, once the whirlwind of media interviews finished, not to mention the trip to America on Simon Cowell’s private jet, I had some time to reflect and consider my options. This basically involved curling up in my basket at home and snoozing. OK, that may not sound like much of an effort, but it’s where dog dreams take shape.
John Taylor, author of In The Pleasure Groove: Love, Death and Duran Duran writes exclusively for Tesco about his new book, his literary inspiration and what he has learned in the course of setting down his memoirs on paper.
A couple of weeks ago we gave you the chance to put your questions to one of the UK’s most authentic and original artists of the last decade: Mike Skinner. We took all of your questions and sent them off to Mike and he’s come back to us with his answers, and has also picked his favourite question to receive a signed copy of his new book – congratulations to Johannah Carroll for your great question!




